Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Hadiah Dari Langit.








Saat hati mengadu pada Dia Yang Maha Mendengar, tenangnya bagai nyanyian salju yang menari. Dan saat kau rasa jalanmu kian terbata, lalu Dia menyuluhkan jalanNya, sungguh air mata mu tak kan cukup untuk berterima kasih..

Di simpuh
Ku merintih
Dalam sesak
Yang melelahkan

Dan saat
Aku terdiam pasrah
Kau hadirkan dia
Membuatkan aku terdiam

Ya Rasulullah..
Sering aku tertanya
Apakah rasa CintaNya..
Saat seringkali aku bingung
Pada keteguhan dan keyakinan mu
Yang tak sesekali goyah
Walau ributnya hari mu
Tak pernah berganti tenang
Dan aku dibacakan
Tentang cintamu padaNya
Yang adakala diri hina ini menyimpan harap
Untuk merasa walau secebis darinya

Ya Rasulullah..
Sungguh cintaNya sangat mengecewakan
Untuk dipersiakan
Saat dalam hari
CintaNya yang menghidupkan langkah kaki
Memberikan hati rasa dicintai
Mengurniakan akal dengan kebijaksanaan ilmuwi
Melimpahkan rezeki untuk menghidupkan jasmani
Tika Dia hanya menanti
Nyanyian syukur hambaNya
Dalam zikir yang menghidupkan rohani
Agar pada diri
Kau merasa cintaNya Illahi..

Dan aku tertanya
Bagaimana mungkin
Aku, seorang hamba
Tidak pernah merasa
Cintanya aku pada Tuhanku
Saat Dia yang memberi segala galanya…

Rabbi..
Ku harap
Masih belum terlambat
Untuk aku
Memeluk cintaMu..


Terima kasih Tuhan…






©Dazz

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

When It Will Stop?




A day that throw you back into the memories that had been painted grieve, with all the messy stuff that you have to go through along the day; it was too tired.

Pull the ‘sejadah’; perhaps it will help me to ‘forget’: Everything! *crying* It doesn’t happen. *Lay my head down* Indeed, you can’t walk passed your destiny just because you feel don’t want to stay. And you can’t stand to hold your destiny when it was too sweet to let it go. That’s what LIFE being true; REAL.

‘You know that I don’t want that moments Rabb. You know I’m suffering enough to even have a sip of the moments. You know it was killing me; as same as goes in the past..’

When it will stop?

I was crumble. Can’t even rescue myself. Let the tears running out of the eyes. And like a storm, the baby that died in tragic that give me a lot of think lately, was came across my mind. *Numb*


Sapulah air mata mu sayang
Dia menguji kerana kasihnya Illahi
Perlahankan larian mu
Pandanglah ke langit
Dia ada untuk mu..

Hidup bukan pilihan sayang
Ianya medan juang
Yang meyaksi amal dihati
Pada manusia atau Tuhan
Yang kau hambakan

Bangunlah sayang
Berjuanglah sedaya mu
Untuk kesempatan yang masih milikmu
Tika aku hanya mampu memandang dari jauh
Dan usah risau sayang
Dia selalu ada untuk mu..


‘Ya Rabb..how could me..’

Looking at the sky. Wishing You will heard me Ya Allah. Wishing You will forgive me Ya Rabb. Here I am, the sinner who doesn’t even praise syukur for all the things that You had given me..

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It will never stop.


"Tidaklah seorang mukmin dan mukminah tertimpa musibah pada dirinya, anaknya dan hartanya sehingga dia berjumpa Allah Ta'ala tidak membawa satu kesalahan pun."
[Hadits Riwayat Al-Tirmidzi]


Because He wants you back to Him; with no single of your sins.


Dan nikmat Tuhan mu yang mana lagi kamu dustakan? [Q:55;13]


‘How dare me…’


Ku tebuskan diriku pada Mu Ya Rabbi
Moga segala dosa dan khilaf
Yang Kau basuh dengan ujian ini
Menjadikan aku sebenar benar
Hamba Mu..


“Sesungguhnya besarnya pahala sebanding dengan besarnya ujian. Dan sesungguhnya jika Allah mencintai suatu kaum pasti Dia menguji mereka. Maka siapa yang redha terhadapnya maka baginya keredhaan Allah, dan siapa yang marah terhadapanya maka baginya kemurkaan Allah.
[Hadith Riwayat Al-Tirmidzi dan Ibnu Majah]


I did learn how to be patience, how to be sabar’, how to be thankful. Truly, it’s hard Rabb. For all the things that You had gifted me, I will find the way. I will learn how to grow with this pain, coz I had much enough from You that too ungrateful I am when I just keep questioning You rather than give what I’m supposed. And standing here right now, I was too afraid that I will lost You..

‘Forgive me Ya Allah..’

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I had done so many wrongs and sins. Yet I’m still asking, ‘when it will stop?’

“Kalau Allah mengkehendaki kebaikan kepada hambaNya, maka akan disegerakan hukumannya di dunia. Kalau Dia mengkehendaki kepada hambaNya keburukan maka ditahan seksaNya kerana dosa hambaNya sampai penuh di hari Kiamat nanti.
[Hadis Riwayat Tirmizi]


While You are leading me to Your path: Washing my sins so that I will back to You smiling; correct my wrongs so that I will teach a new lesson for my children.

‘And how could I am…’

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It’s still a long journey. Of course, I’m afraid of falling and broken. But, I hope You will there for me; always.

InsyaAllah, then I can do..


Tuhan
Kurniakan aku PengetahuanMu
Agar aku tidak bertindak dengan kejahilan
Yang bakal menyesatkan aku
Jauh dariMu

Tuhan
Di mana kan ku cari
Pencinta seperti Mu
Yang terlalu indah
Memberikan aku rasa
Tanpa luka dan air mata..







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Duhai diri
Ingatlah Dia di hari mu
Walau dalam rencah apa pun yang kau tempuhi

Duhai diri
Tak kau berdiri tika ini
Tanpa Dia Yang Maha Memberi

Duhai diri
Belajarlah syukuri
Walau hanya pada seguris luka yang membuatkan mu menangis

Duhai diri
Tika kau merasakan dunia terlalu lelah untuk kau kejari
Tundukkanlah jasadmu memohon pada Illahi
Kerana Dia tak pernah sunyi dijejak hari

Duhai diri
Hidup bukan hanya hal mu sendiri
Ada haq yang perlu kau lunasi
Belajarlah memberi agar kau diampuni
Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Mengasihani

Duhai diri
Ada hal yang kau tak mengerti
Lepaskannya agar kau kembali
PadaNya Yang Maha Mengetahui
Apa yang ada didalam hati

Duhai diri
Ada doa yang menghidupkan hati
Mohonlah hanya padaNya
Saat itu yang mampu kau beri
Pada dia yang pernah kau cintai

Duhai diri
Berlarilah walau tak sekencang sang angin
Kerana hidup adalah sebuah perjuangan
Sebelum segala amal diadili
Yang menentukan kejayaan hakiki
Pada Syurga yang dijanji
Untukmu setelah lelah yang kau harungi







This video make me learn a lot of things; how to think, how to speak, how to act, how to received, how to step, how to be patience, how to be thankful; how an abdillah should do. May Allah grant and bless him; as he was like a rain that damp into the parched heart.





Tuhan
Moga Engkau Redha ke atasku..
Bismillah..

©Dazz


Monday, December 29, 2014

MOM






Mom.

The one’s that never disappointed you. Even she never knows the taste of your smile, her eyes spell a magic that will heal what you feels. Even she never be there when your tears are burn out, your heart will calling her name and your pain slowly endure.

Mom.

She was a miracle magic that been Gifted. Even you had a broken coz of her; someday you will realize that you miss her for that broken that makes you standing here now.

Mom.

Sometimes she not used in showing how she loves you. But she does cry when she couldn’t stand holding your pain by just looking.

Mom.

In the most of time, we forget that she also had a pain and tears. How could we never seen she cry because of that? Because she was a

MOM…



Mom.

You’re the great person that I ever-meet even people’s come to me and say you’re not. You’re great in your way, handling your children that they never know how hard you’re. You’re great in your way, when you have to sacrifice between your children and your siblings; they never know when they don’t wear the same shoes of you. You’re great in your way, be alive when you been tested with your mother in law; they never know how it’s killing you everyday. Because you’re a human too, I know you are not perfect, that sometimes you cross the border that make people throw you away; forgot the times when you are standing with them even they don’t have nothing in return. It’s ok mom. I’m here for you. Even I can’t paint your memories with the bright colors that will make you smile joy, in the name of Our Creator, I promise to make you perfect to Him with my dua’a that I will sing along your breathe. That was the only the gift that I hope will suture you, for all the pains and hard time you going through, for all the mistakes that you can’t yet see, for all your inside broken that make you been spaced from Him.


When I am down my soul so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up...

To more than I can be..





Mom.

Thank you for raised me up as what I’m standing now. I owe you a lot till I can’t make it into words.

Mom.

You’re the greatest things that happen in my life. Thank you for having me as your children!

Mom.

Now I’m looking at the sky; smiling when I know I will miss you; someday. 

Mom.

I’m hurting. Do pray for me. So that I can be as great as you mom..

Mom.

I will learn to deal with this life. So that, I will be a great mom as you. InsyaAllah.

Mom.

I love you.


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Ya Rabb.

For the breath that You still borrowed me, please guide, grant, ease and bless her till she be back to You. She had done great – raised me up as I’m standing here, firm like a mountain even I had been broke many of times. Thank you Rabb for Gifted her as my MOM..


For the remaining time, I hope I can make you smile happily for having me as your children.







©Dazz